I just keep going through my old post and it makes ms realize, I was such a shitty person. I wish I could go back to 10th grade and change it all. I would do it right and be a lot happier. I miss my adventures, I miss my old happy fun self who was care free and did as I please. I would wake up in the morning and just walk around down town and sit by the lake with my best friend and laugh and joke around and then go sneak out and eat food and talk to random people and be adventurous. No one ever told me life would be this hard, no one once gave me a warning and told me to enjoy everything like its going to run out. Here I am miserable and sad and wishing I could relive my fun days. I wish it wouldn’t of flew by so fast. I wish I could stay forever young in 10th grade. I had it made so much and I took advantage of if because I didn’t know that life could be this shitty. I was young and reckless and didn’t care what was going to happen. I’m stuck in a never ending vortex of sadness. I just want to say, I’m sorry for everything, I’m sorry I was so shitty towards you, you know who you are if you ever see this. I doubt it but if you do… good. I just want you to know that not one memory leaves my mind. Every little adventure we had, every little inside joke we had, everything will always and forever be in my mind and locked up, because those were the days I enjoyed the most. Those were the days I didn’t feel so shitty. I just want you to know, this is about my old best friend I abanded. I come to tumblr and relive my once glory days. I’m sorry it ended the way it did.